So, long story but here we go:
I got an email from my teacher saying that she got an email from the school counselor saying that the teachers are not allowed to address the students by their preferred name and pronouns without having parental permission. This affects me because my parents are homophobic and transphobic. Then, my dad got an email from my science teacher saying that my grade was low, I went to check my grade and it was way above the grade that the teacher said I had. I asked my dad why he was receiving this email because the email should have said why. He then gets mad and makes me do push-ups, which I am very weak and unable to do. So instead he makes me hold out weights for 5 minutes straight. He proceeds to yell at me for the duration of the 5 minutes. Then he remind me about my grandfather's death by saying that he worked so hard to get us this house and I'm going to be the reason we lose it because I'm not doing my school work. He then proceeds to tell me that he was the top in his class and that I should be like him. That I should be smarter than I am, and I should just ignore my depression and stress and put my work first. He says that my friends get in the way, even though my friends are the ones who are keeping me sane. My friends are the ones who are keeping me from trying to yeet myself off a bridge. My dad has called me worthless and untrustworthy several times before. He's yelled at me and banged tables and then he questions why I'm scared of him. "I'VE NEVER HIT YOU SO DON'T GIVE ME A REASON TO MAKE YOU FEAR ME" he says a lot. I really hate this household and I just want to run away. But that's not an option because I'm under-aged in there so many dangers out in this world. So instead I'm just going to be crying internally. My life is a mess and supposedly I'm a failure.
If you read this far, thank you.