hey everyone.
yeah, i’m going on break.
i need to step away from scratch.
like right now.
i know that i’m not a scratcher yet and this might affect how long it takes- but we’ll see.
ily guys.
..
but do you really love me?
i mean- sometimes i feel so lost.
are you tired of me moving?
are you angry at me?
have you forgotten me?
ever since there was drama with icy me and marshy things have almost broken me down.
i feel sad.
i feel like i take you all for granted.
and you say that you’re here for me.
but i feel sometimes you aren’t.
i’m sorry.
..
did i do something wrong?
am i worth nothing?
am i nobody?
i don’t know.
i don’t even care anymore.
maybe i have friends-
maybe i don’t.
i feel let down my some of you.
that you forget about me.
that i have to say hi for you to notice me.
ig that’s how i feel right now.
yeah.
not to all of you, either.
sometimes i give you a shoutout.
do you notice it?
do you care about it?
do you even like me?
am i actually your friend?
or am i just a person that doesn’t exist?
am i annoying to you?
why.
scratch is changing me too much.
making me care about things that i didn’t before.
racism.
bullying.
maybe i’ll leave scratch.
i don’t know.
ily.
but do you love me?
do you?
why do i feel like this?
why am i writing this?
is this mood swings?
am i angry at you?
or am i just being stupid?
i don’t know.
i guess this turned into a rant.
yeah.
it did.
yeah. i’m-
mad?
sad?
frustrated?
i don’t know anymore.
i might be back tomorrow, who knows?
i-
i miss being happy.
i’m almost crying.
bye.

..
am i enough?
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