oh and sad story at beginning of mah doggo then i try to make my depressing life funny for u guys lol so u wont be sad entire time-
This is a true story.
December 30, 2019. It was around 2 pm and I was playing Hmmm... On roblox. I was cheerful and exited to see my sick dog next thursday when I go to my dads bc my doggo loves seeing me. Then....All of the sudden my mother came downstairs on the phone with tears. She usually is like that so I said, "what? did u loose a date with someone?" She sighed and stayed silent for 5 minutes until she said... " Nightmare, (not sayin my real name) Its milo... He passed away this morning..." My heart...I felt it break.. It hurt so bad.. My dog milo was like a brother to me... He was my big brother.... He was there for me when no one else was... I dropped my xbox controller and started crying... I cried out, "NO!!! NO!!! IM SO SORRY ITS MY FAULT! He was in pain for his last few months because I refused to put him down! He could of not felt that pain!!" My mom hugged me and said it wasnt my fault... I didnt beleive her... His body would get cremated... I wanted his ashes but my mom and dad DIDNT LET ME HAVE THEM. They didnt let me see his body... They said i wouldnt wanna see it... said I DID! I screamed at them depression grew, I was an idiot.. All I had left of him....Was his collar and favorite toy I gave him a few years ago.. I held them in my hands promising myself that I would never let go of them.. After I found out this I said, "Mom....Let me go see @smol_Dream and her dogs...My mom let me go and I hugged @SmolDream and her dogs.. I was sad because her dog theo was good friends with my dog...And he didnt get to say goodbye... After that day... I had fallen apart more and more with all these horrid things.. I dont know who to beleive. With constantly hearing this... Mom: Your father cheated on me!
Dad: I didnt cheat on her! She has wanted to divorce for years!
brother: I hate u nightmare
me: i hate u to brother..
voices: Your not good enough..
you cant do it
look, your failing
no one cares
u r crying over a dog and its almost been a year!
ur family hates u
no one should be ur friend
u r a liar
Ur not smart
These words stick with me and many more.. heh.. Over a divorce, being minipulated, and having my dog die, Cmon nm.. You have been through worse. And you dont even care. Your aunt and grandpa died when u were 3 months. And u cried more for ur dog. PAthetic.
Tbh... these voices I was like "BOI ur annoying-"
me: R U KIDDING ME-
mom: I understand u *2 seconds later* Stop sayin that. *2 seconds later* I AM LETTIN U EXPRESS HOW U FEEL *2 seconds later* U r grounded for saying that
me: BuT wHy-
dad: CMON KIDS LETS DO LAUNDRY AT GRANDMAS HOUSE EVERY SNDAY WHERE U MUST LISTEN TO GOD DAMN CHURCH MUSIC AND NOOO DEVICES!
Dad: it will only be a hr
*7 hrs later*
me: *getting laughed by granparents*
me: GET ME OUT OF THIS DAMN HOUSE
my mom: I will help u with every single thing u do in life even showers :>
me: Pls get away from me-
**meets ppl from undertale fandom**
Ut fandom ppl: *R like me*
depression: time to grow grow grow >:)
feelings: Ight we gonna vanish
grades: F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F
me: welp i give up on school
canvas: 30 missing assignments fo you
my mom: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
me: NOOO DONT KILL MEEE REEEEEE
my mom: NO SCRATCH SCRATCH FO YOU YOU IF U DONT DONT DO WORK WORK
*me doin some assignments everyday* But i-
mom: NUUUUUUUU >:(
*relationship with brother somehow gets better out of no where-*
brother: I intrested in undertale more now :>
me and my brother: *play akinator everynight on my alexa when we r suppose to get ready for bed*
my mom: ALEXA STAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAPP
me: NOOOOOOOOOOOOO IT WAS ABOUT TO GUESS REAPER SANS!!
*wakes at 6 am everyday to hear loud megalovania ply on my alexa*
me: TiMe To ChEcK tHe BiLlIoNs Of NoFs On ScrAtcH
*after gets ready goes to school and fails*
me: nope- *ignores grades and plays scratch* |
me: YOUTUBE AND SCRATCH MORE IMPORTANT THEN HOMEWORK-
12 am: *draws undertale all night*
*sleeps for 6 hrs*
Then life repeat
that is mah life AND I AM COOL >:)
I take medicine to make me happy..? Doctors how do u-