Hey guys..... So this is kind of a heavy topic...I understand if u dont have time for my worthless words.
So lately I have been on scratch bit less... And ive been a bit negative.
THIS IS NOT A RP.
I have been goin through some hard things lately and my depression is getting worse. And my parents are not together anymore so I have basically 2 lives. (been separated for 2 years) And so far... Ive been fighting with my parents and brother and family more. Everytime I get into a fight with someone I feel like its all my fault and I shouldnt be around them.. I also feel like im a horrible person and that I dont deserve family or friends... Many days I feel suic*dal.... I always wish one day I will die. Im starting to fall apart more and more and I have had trouble sleeping. I also lost my only true friend on new years eve..MY DOG. I cried so much and I have been in pain since. I also have been on my devices more then I was use to.. I make so many people upset and I just cry. I cry in my mind. I dont tell anyone. My parents have been taking my devices away a ton so I cant get on and play games to be happy. I try so hard on many things but at the end.... I just fail. I fail at everything.... Every night I hope I will just die in my sleep.. I feel like I have failed everyone especially my brother and my friends.. SO..........im sorry if you guys read
*sigh* i give up. I cant.. I amalready feeling useless and dumb my grades suck. Why do i feel so alone.
the pain hurts so bad...
if u wanna know what else has happened to me i guess u can ask....But i doubt u will like it
the p this.... I must of wasted your time... Im sorry.
Heh..You will forget me and this soon anyway..
new: Dam.. found out some friends betrayed me and were not real friends.
new: Did i fail my dad as well..? He is mad at me more and more.
new: thx guys for being so kind..