I'm sad, please help. i miss @lovehammi, she was so kind and so awesome... i need my(friend) "counselor", Emma, please. can i talk to you on quotev or Macro Polo? or any of you (not the Macro polo part)? or even here. i miss a lot of other people too like my friend Kai. i need help, i really do, i've been able to go to school, and i made a new friend, but, no one can replace Hammi, or Kai. i also lost my friend Charlie, along with my friend Ash. y'all know them by @Charlie_is_great and @ashbee8... Guys, i'm losing my mind. i'm also sorry about the fnaf rp being "annoying" i guess some people would say. i'm sorry if you don't like studio invites, but this is something that's been bothering me for a while and won't get out of my head... i-i'm sorry for being here. I'm sorry for remixing projects. I'm sorry for using Gacha Life. I'm so sorry annoying any of you. I'm sorry for everything.
Message to ST: if your reading this (which you probably aren't), please unban @lovehammi, she was the one that encouraged me to draw, and I've gotten a lot better. She was also the one at got me WAY into fnaf (the second time after falling out of the fandom). She's also very kind and stuffs, and I'm sure if you give her another chance she won't post website thingys and other crap. For me, Scratch just isn't the same without her... If it was someone like griffpatch that was banned, then I probably wouldn't care AS MUCH as I do since it's hammi Also I want to thank a member of ST for unbanning me, not saying [their] name, but thank you.
Back to y'all:
it's been i hard time for me, i've been thinking about changing genders but then i think about my gay girlfriend, or my sister, she would be so confused... everytime i hold a knife, my hand gets all shaky and thoughts of "Just do it" and "do it!" flood through my head. But then i just think of what my brother would do to himself if he found me dead. i think of what my mom would do. My little sister would be so confused. then i just throw the knife where it's supposed to be and i carry on. Every time i say something like, "I laid on the floor and felt like trash" or i point my nerf gun to my head my mom will be like, "Uh, don't do that." Depression is not aloud at my house. something that i have been lying about for the time i've been on scratch is my name. My name is not Cheyenne, my name is Sybyll, I just like the name Chyenne more than Sybyll, I never meant for it to go to far, but when i became friends with @Shimerstone i started to feel guilty about it, and then my family started pressuring me about it, they would be like "So, have you told those people your real name yet?" and i'm really sorry! i-i-i hope y'all can forgive me. if you unfollow me or you don't want to be my friend anymore, i completely understand, you can scream at me, you can make fun of me, you can do whatever... i'm sorry Emma for not telling you sooner, i just didn't want you to be mad at me...