(yes I have a therapist, they don't help. Please don't be mean about it.)

I'm feeling sad. I need a shoulder to cry on, or a hug. Someone, anyone, just try to show you actually care?

I don't really want to be alive anymore. It's not enough. Everyone has friends and I have nothing. The people that say they care about me only love me when I need help. I feel like everyone is fake and not genuine. If you're out there, this is someone who needs people who care about them. It's not okay. I'm getting trust issues. Nothing is okay. I feel like i'm using my sadness as clout or something, but really this is a cry for help. I need help. Enough with the jokes. If I can rant to someone then that'll make me 'happy' or some stuff. I also have an eating disorder now because I think i'm ugly but I actually don't know why i'm not eating? idk. I need a shoulder to cry on, or a hug. Someone, anyone, just try to show you actually care?

If you were mean to me, I don't forgive you. You will always make my life worse. Don't pretend you're sorry.