My cat she...
My mom told me she's thinking of calling the vet next week to set up an appointment to put her down. ;-;
She's blind, deaf, and can't smell because of congestion. She hasn't eaten in a week.
I keep holding on to thins false hope that says she'll be all right, she'll pull through. But when my mom broke the news to me, I realized I was lying to myself, over and over.
Our cats older than me and shes been in the family since she was a kitten. We weren't really the best of friends. We hurt each other alot and were afraid of each other to be honest. Yes. I was scared of an 8 lbs cat. Now though... I feel like the whole time I was the villan if this were a story. I hurt her and made her not trust anyone but my parents. I wish I could take it all back and start back over but I can't. ;-; I feel terrible inside and wish I treated her better in the past. Not just now.
I realize I need to stop hiding my feelings. The truth is, I feel empty.