Okay well I was thinking of telling my friends that I don't want to be their friends anymore not as an April fools joke, like for real. I just always feel so pushed to be something I don't want to be, like I'm shrinking instead of growing, like I'm not enough. So, should I?
Here's the letter:
I don’t think I can do it anymore, us being friends. It’s just I feel so trapped when I’m with you guys, like I need to be a different person. I also feel like I can’t do anything to pursue my dreams because you guys are already good at everything. It’s not like you're doing anything, it’s just that I can’t. I feel like you guys are my superior and I’m being forced around, like I’ll never be anything. I feel, looked down on. I also stress out about being around you guys, I feel like I have to do certain things and wear certain things when I’m around you. Also another big factor is the fact that you pulled such mean pranks on me. You probably think I’ve forgiven you, I’m sorry to say, I haven’t and I probably never will. Honestly the fact that when I was going to the bathroom you guys looked over the stall and kicked the door open. What were you guys thinking? That it would all be fine and dandy after that? That's one thing I could never forgive anyone for, invading my privacy. Also the fact that you guys thought it was a funny prank to pull that someone was texting you guys and telling you they were watching you. That's not acceptable. Also I use my moms phone, and maybe if it ever was real I maybe wouldn’t believe you. Another big thing is the fact that you guys tease me. Yes I am bringing this up, because it may not matter to you, but it's a big factor in this letter. You still tease me about kpop and honestly it hurts, a lot. I only cover it up because I don’t want people knowing how much it hurts. The fact that you’d wish someone’s death, that’s not something I take lightly. I hope that you don’t consider this a joke, because it isn’t. I will still see you at school, so I will be kind, even if you start to hate me. I only wish things could have worked out differently, but maybe it would’ve ended this way, I don’t know.