I deleted my last update as of June 27th because a lot has changed! I figured that I may feel better if I share it with someone, so I guess that means the people who were interested enough to follow to this studio.
Recently I've expirienced something that triggered a trauma response in my brain. Any progress I've made with my anxiety and agoraphobia has been obliterated. This also has added more mental issues associated with trauma. In short, I'm struggling.
Every time I make a little mistake I spiral into a self-destructive mindset, even if the mistake or problem was totally out of control. I've never been so sensitive to other people, and I can't go to places like grocery stores, the movies, or the mall without finding myself anxious. School isn't an exception, but isn't avoidable.
I feel very sorry. I don't know why. But I'm really sorry.
There's nothing to look forward to or an update to give - the service dog thing was an idea I backed out on due to the fact that I'll never be a vet-tech if I rely on a service dog.
I'm going to keep trying.